Tuesday, January 8, 2008

When will it all end?

I feel like this cat ... I just want to find a hole and crawl in it and escape. I am so tired. I thought this part of mommying was suppose to end when my kids were past the baby stage, but no! I am still deprived sleep for some odd reason. I am not sure if it is because of the potty training we are doing or what ... but my youngest is having a hard time sleeping at night. So she comes in an awakes me up for company. I am not great company to say the least. She wants me to either turn her music back on, sleep with her for a short time, cover her back up, or she wants to get in bed with us. So the other night I thought, I will make her a cozy on the floor beside my bed and just encourage her to lay down there instead of me laying with her or she crawling in bed with me (kicking me all night). It worked, but she kept popping up asking me questions, etc. Finally she went to sleep, but I am not even sure if or how many hours of sleep I got ... I am just wasted today. The other night (Sat) was kind of the same way and after church I came home and took a 5 hour nap ... now if that doesn't tell you how tired I am - I am not sure what would. I now know why they use sleep deprivation for torture ... that is exactly how I feel today. I spent about a 1/2 hour in my room crying because I was so tired and such a grump not being able to get anything done that I wanted to. My house is a wreck (really!) and I just don't have the desire or energy to tackle it. I just want peace and quiet to sleep. But because I am potty training that is in intervals which helps but not much. So I finally buckled and called my hubby at work and vented and cried. He called the Peds office and they want to see her to make sure she doesn't have an ear infection (which I think is unlikely) and then gave us some hard advice to use for the night time. Basically like we would if she were an infant ... let her cry it out. I thought I was finished with this ... this is the part of their childhood I am OK with rushing right through. It is no wonder I have no desire to lose weight ... I am all stressed out due to lack of sleep. So tonight we will move our eldest into the play room for the night or two and then use our advise on the youngest to see how she will stay in her room on her own. When will it all end ... before I come to an end - I hope.

Dwight Schrute: Someone forged medical information, and that's a felony.

Jim Halpert: OK, Whoa, all right 'cause that's a pretty intense accusation. How do you know that they're fake?

Dwight Schrute: [reading from a sheet] Uh, Leprosy, Flesh Eating Bacteria, Hot Dog Fingers, Government Created Killer Nano Robot Infection.